The Satanic Music Business Tragic Deaths

The Lost List - ⭐ Stars Gone Too Soon ⭐

“How long shall they kill our prophets, while we stand aside and look?”  Bob Marley

Who’s behind the sudden deaths of these stars? Is it there own fault, accidents or part of someone’s evil demonic psychopathic master plan? When there’s this much money involved and reputations at stake, anything is very possible, there’s always a lot more going on than meets the eye, its Nov 2024, and the world we live in is madder than ever.

It’s a never-ending movie we call life, and the most recent tragedy the music world is reeling from, is the untimely death of Liam Payne from One Direction fame, who appears to have allegedly been pushed, or launched off a balcony in a Buenos Aires hotel, and I am not the only one screaming murder in the first degree, it’s all so dodgy and unnatural.  He was just 31, it seems obvious foul play is going on, god bless his soul! 

Meanwhile Brian Harvey of E17 London boyband from 30 yrs ago fame, has been fired into action up by Liam’s death, and is rightly outraged and been dropping truth bombs about the satanic and calculating side of the music biz with no holding back, and so he should, he knows only too well the level of abuse in the music industry that’s been going on and been covered up, he sees the symbolism, he knows it’s all wrong in his heart and soul, and it’s crying out to be heard and respected, full respect from me Brian.  The silencing and smearing tactics of ‘they are just crazy, mentally ill" is bullshit, and that kind of narrative has facilitated the abuse to continue, many voices like Brians have been silenced forever.

Knowing too much is dangerous in this fame game, it’s very bloody serious, underestimate it at your peril believe me.  Brian has survived thank god, but he's been treated like dog shit by the business that has made millions from his voice, and ironically wants to silence that voice too, when he’s bravely spoken up over the many years gone by, they’ve been gunning for him since 95! Of course he doesn’t always get it right, none of us do, but when it comes to the corruption and tactics used within these music circles, he has them bang to rights with facts and evidence, and that’s the reason they discredit him, the do not want the truth coming to light.

It is our time to shine on their evil shadows though, survivors of abuse coming together, supporting each other and helping our stories to be heard is how we make a difference and change it, good always overcomes evil in the end, love always wins.

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Gone Too Soon

Whether you think that we’ve been told the whole truth about these deaths, or suspect that there’s something more sinister, masonic or satanic going on, one thing nobody can deny, is the tragedy that’s felt by us all seeing so many untimely losses of the stars we’ve grown to love, across the music and entertainment industry, often leaving us at a very early age. It’s shocking and depressing that the ‘gone too soon’ list gets ever longer, sadder, more suspicious and heartbreaking as time goes on, and the years roll by.

We’re led to believe that these artists dreams have come true, that they are having the greatest times of their lives, living their ‘best life’ paraded in front of us on all our screens, from social media, movies and the old programming box itself, the giant screen TV, but is that the reality these stars are truly living?

Success as an artist brings with it glitz and glamour and all the trappings of fame and fortune, which should make life easier, less of a struggle, generally better and more fun for everyone all round, at least that’s what’s being sold to the public eye.  So, what’s going wrong? Why are so many artists struggling mentally, or worse, died suddenly, and gone to the other side with a massive sensational fanfare and generally very suspect circumstances from day one, in the words of Marvin Gaye, what’s going on?

To investigate that we have to go behind the scenes of the fame game, to a world of music, movies and mega money, ego maniacs, manipulation, msm media and the mafia moguls that control it all.

Let’s go backstage, to the manager’s office, to the green room, to the ‘networking’ bash and the after party, who’s behind the curtain? Who’s running the show? Who’s the biggest players in the business, who’s making the big bucks and calling the shots? WHO? I’ll tell you…

Follow the money

There’s no business-like show business they say, and I’d agree with that. It’s been a rollercoaster of immense highs and excruciating lows for me, and I can, categorically confirm that there is a much darker side to the biz, one I have come to understand the depths of, a cult or an occult, you could call it either, the gatekeepers, and the major players, those profiteering at the top are the ones whose conduct needs to be scrutinised

Electronic Dance Music

I’ve been working in the underworld, on the club scene underground since 1995, and the dark side of drugs, abuse, addiction, sex, and the exploitation of party people, in the name of art and talent has pretty much always been there in the shadows, but instead of this getting better as we naturally evolve, it’s actually got worse, it’s a toxic, unhealthy, narcissistic beast that I’ve seen grown bigger and bigger over the years.  One that has been incessantly fed and fuelled with pure greed, corruption, and a gun-ho attitude of anything goes if it makes big bucks, playing on peoples love, hopes, dreams and needs.

SEX Sells

Sex is really the name of the game, sex sells everything best, SEX, not talent, that’s what they look for first, and it’s a weapon manipulated and used in all kinds of way within music circles.  We’ve seen a normalisation of sexualisation and degradation in music, in the lyrics, videos, artwork and satanic stage shows, its twisted on the screens and behind closed party doors.  Live fast die young lifestyle promoted, you signed up for it so it’s alright yeah? Oh, and then there’s the death clause in that big record deal contract, and heh presto, whadda ya know, there’s another massive star dead in a hotel room and someone’s laughing all the way to the bank.

My oh my, there’s so much to unpack here, you do have to be very brave, and emotionally strong to face up to it and deal with it head on! There is only one way to stop abuse of all kinds though, call it out that’s how!

The Mister BIG 3

'If you don't own your masters, your master owns you.' Prince Rogers Nelson

When signing on that dotted line to a major label does anyone really realise the risks involved? They are definitely not explained to the artist, no duty of care, no safeguarding children, no such thing in show business, lots of virtue signalling about it though, but when push comes to shove they don’t walk the walk. Many that are ‘in the know’ of the abuse that goes on are turning a blind eye or keeping stum to save their own pay checks and necks.  I understand why, we all have different responsibilities and can take different risks, I get it more than most.

I’ve experienced what happens when you stick your neck out and call things out, my life changed dramatically from doing so, the industries smearing tactics are real and deeply callous, manipulative and vindictive, real friends in the business are few and far between.  I’m a victim and a survivor of this dark music cult too, it’s a destructive, hierarchical narcissistic family dynamic, those you thought cared and valued your work just rinse and use you, the music family has as many issues as the rest of our dysfunctional families do.

We must address this dark side of our music culture bravely to have a hope to change it now and in the future.  We can’t just sit by, and watch tragedy unfold, let it all carry on unchecked, it’s 2024, music needs love and revolution, music needs rebellion and good rebels, it’s not just all about SEX, and rock & roll, and then it’s all gone Pete Tong! It’s time we moved on, learnt the lessons of the past and make this the promised land that we want our kids to live in. This is our responsibility, and I feel its weight greatly.

Single White Raving Female

I’ve been working in club world since 1995 and my first job as a barmaid, in the now notorious Racquels club in Basildon.  I’m an Essex girl born and bred, and an original House music old skool raver through and through. I’m a passionate lover of music, acting, dancing, singing and of being on the stage since childhood. I left home at 16 and started work up in town. In 98, I went from being a city girl reinsurance broker for Lloyds of London, to becoming a Pg3 model and my life lesson education in mainstream media began.

Then after a fateful summer on the white island of Ibiza in 2000, promoting Sundissential at super club Eden, documented by Sky Ibiza Uncovered camera crew, I began working full time and full on in the music industry, in dance music to be specific, promoting clubnights, representing DJs and in Radio, branching out on my own in 2006 with my Ideal DJs agency and Ideal Clubworld global live and visual Radio brand in 2011, and in Jan 2021 I launched my newest and current vision istreem.

I’ve seen and learnt a thing or two in this last 30 years.  My soap opera life as I used to describe it, turned into a full-scale blockbuster movie when lock-down hit. I’m full to the brim and often overwhelmed with mad and totally true stories of a crazy life so far lived.  I’m now at the ripe old age of 50 and thankfully still here to tell these mental tales, and tell them I will, nobody should fear truth.   All I know and have known, seen, learnt, experienced, witnessed and understand from this magical journey will be told, the light, the dark, the yin and the yang, it’s all real and it is my story to tell.  The shadows, the demons and their darkness, they have threatened to eclipse me and us all.

Death is our Greatest Teacher

The deaths of these super stars that we have witnessed, are the casualties of a very toxic, satanic, sinful and abusive culture.  Whether they be bumped off for the money to be made from their death, or died from a lonely confused mental state, or they be accidental or deliberate overdoses, whatever the true story be, we all need to know why, what went wrong? We all have the duty to care, and care I do.

Artists have been groomed, used and abused, seen as commodities to the fat cat controllers running the entertainment industry at the top, some have been served up knowingly for money, or innocently by their parents at a very young age.   It’s all about the cash, kids all seen as prey or used as assets, if you’re born naturally beautiful with stars in your eyes beware, they’ll be hunting you down hard, it’s not about the talent or music, or how good you are at your creative art, we all have a creative genius within us.  It’s simply been made all about the sale, how much money, power and influence the big boys have got, and what sugar daddy can get you to do to get a piece of the action.  Sell yourself to the highest bidder, sell your soul to the devil, give your child to these people for fame and fortune, and you will then do as you are told and like it, or else they might end up dead…

When you give away your autonomous artistic control, direction and decision, you give up control of your life. Understanding grooming and what really goes on around the casting directors couch, or in the studio is a critical lesson if we are going to change it, this is sexual abuse at the root of all this tragedy

Demons in Disguise

I’ve always described the music biz as cut-throat, it’s not for the faint hearted, but it is a place where I thought I was free to be who I wanted to be, a place where madly I felt safe, a crazy family of curious characters that I’ve been marching about on all kinds of journeys with over the years.  Looking after DJs of all kinds and sizes has been my life path, wild times, exciting adventures and all kinds of characters.  It’s a path that has brought true love knocking on my front door, and it’s also nearly broke me, it tore my heart apart and then sent me gifts from god to put it back together.   That’s why I won’t give up on music, its life force is in me, keeps pulling me back, rescuing my soul, good music makes me feel good and brings us together, music is pure magic and so powerful. Sadly the demons in the business know this though, and once the blinkers come off you see right through these snakes, and I won’t be a part of a business that chews you up, spits you out and then makes money out of your tragic passing. I have to draw the line at that!

I’m known for keeping it real and ideal, my great awakening has meant some really tough realisations, I was not naïve, but we can all be fooled can’t we? Think people are your friends and decent, then when push comes to shove, you realise they will throw you under the bus for a few quid or fuck you off rather than face up to one of their own demons…

Diddy is not the only deviant, there’s lots of varying degrees in the biz giving it the large one, like they can get away with anything, the silence is deafening and Diddy is a big demon that could bring the seedy depths of the music industry to light and bring down Hollyweird with it too. Clive Davis and Lucien Grainge, Simon Cowell, we see you, there’s no escaping the truth, so many know it, and it shines like the universal sun, and it always comes out in the end.

Duty of Care

When looking after my artists I always cared more about the person, the teamwork relationship, and about the music than the money.  I tried to look after them, do fair reasonable business and always said that money doesn’t make you happy, don’t let it be your driving factor.  My mostly male DJs didn’t believe me, love makes the world go round for me, no money does they’d say…

Sticking with love being my top priority and doing open honest business and moral work, has been made practically impossible in the most ruthless/no rules business game ever. To put it bluntly if I don’t kiss their arse, suck their cock and shut my eyes to the abuse, then I’m not getting ‘no love or support’ from anyone. This has cost me dearly but my sanity and life is worth more.  The mainstream money driven music industry is seriously bad for your mental and physical health, most in the biz have a tale of being screwed over and screwed up along the way.

The Great Awakening

It was only in 2020 that I truly woke up to the realisation of how dark the music world had become, the death of my husband’s brother Tim on 30.10.2020 was a wake up to peoples true intentions, death made them so much clearer. I saw through those I knew and had worked with, those who said that they were all about the love and respect, that had started their own careers in music in the anti-establishment kick back era of the 90’s rave revolution, showed they were anything but anti anything but truth and accountability, they towed the official government line like subservient soldiers, it was shocking to me.  Nothing bigger could have showed the true colours of those in the music, to me and the rest of the awakening world, than their ‘woke’ mentality, what happened to the love, music and freedom, all one on the dancefloor. PLUR?

Or is it they are all hypnotised with the CIA agenda MK mind control, devil in their heads has taken over? Full blown cognitive dissonance seems to be the common thread in thein often-aggressive minds of many of the woke.

Toxic Work Culture

I tentatively tried to stand up to the problems of a toxic culture in dance music of ‘Ketworking’ alcoholism and chronic drug and sexual abuse, tried to speak out for victims of rape and be heard for the #metoo music movement. The result, I was immediately shunned, smeared, ridiculed, attacked and alienated by people I’d known 20plus years, treated horribly by people I’d thought were friends.  They showed to me that there was no morals, no care for my work, me or for the music, or for anyone else other than themselves, narcissistic egos in complete control.

A Wake Up Call

In Feb 2022 after Tim’s inquest I retreated from the world, nursed my wounds, had a long look at my life, let go and went fully into my spiritual healing journey…

Uni – Verse = One Song

I love music, it’s my passion, constant companion, therapist and my spiritual guide. Ultimately, it’s my boss in this business, that’s the way I see it, as apart from my cat there’s nobody else telling me what to do, not for the last 18yrs since I struck out on own, started my own business independently, launched my international agency and artist mgmt company, Ideal DJs. I went on to look after dozens of DJs diaries. I love good DJs, my husband is one, it’s how we met, and all my best male friends are DJs, there are lots of good ones out there, not everything about music business is bad.

There’s some real bad DJs aswell though, and I don’t mean at the art of mixing, I mean morally, ethically and in every way and many are at the top…

The harshest wakeup call was when I woke up to the sexual extortion, sexual exploitation, and serious abuse going on under the cover of the music mantle, the rhythmic tribal chanting can be subliminally entrancing you for many years, now it’s blatant and in ya face sadistic and satanically taking you to bad frequency vibes, what you are listening to, idolising and giving your precious time heart and money too? Making those choices wisely is where we take back our power, and our music.

Nobody needs the big labels anymore really, their sugar daddy diddly devils demons payday is over, I prayed for this.

I realise now so many people’s intentions with me over the years were not good, so many tried to groom me, I dodged many bullets without even realising I was doing it.

After some serious soul searching, and a whole lot of contemplating with my husband, looking back I realised I was an unwitting but somewhat a part of the music industry grooming process. Before 2020 I didn’t even know what grooming was…

When they tried to groom my husband and split our marriage, we both woke up with a massive jolt

It's been a series of wake up calls for us since then…

99% of my clients and business in dance music had all been with guys, boys to men.

DJs, hundreds of them, I know loads, I have lists and lists of them, so many names, everyone wants to be a DJ don’t they, or be famous????

DJs, popstars and celebs, we were all programmed to believe in this dream, i’ve met worked and partied with a good few well known faces, I know the good, the bad and the ugly and for Part 2 i’ll drop some names and see what we’ve learnt and what I think about them all

Wish me luck #onelove